Day 14

Day 14, Jan 14th

ya, thats me!  My 5yr old actually took this picture. Thats right, my 5yr old!!!  lol  and no cropping or adjusting either =)  this isnt the first time she has taken such a great picture.. she definitely got talent just like her mom!!! 

 So the picture above wasn't taken today!  i just wanted something nice and of me as the first pictures

Here is the reason - I was very busy cleaning up the house and getting rid of junk that i seem to hold on to and yet never use. I then took a break to check MeRa's Blog, to find  that the SOAR recipients had been picked.   My heart sunk, then a rush of emotions ran through me.  I got up and just kept cleaning. I guess to keep my mind busy but was in no mood to pick up my camera.
It amazes me that even tho we went through this last year, I still got so upset. I tried to prepare myself for it this time! "even if i dont win, im still a winner!"  but wasnt enough.
eh, i just have to processes it as im sure many of us who were not selected need to do!

 here is a photo that I took of myself last year when we found out the winners for SOAR........

I feel the same way today!! 
but im not going to let this feeling drag on like i did last year.. i will feel like a winner (at some point..lol)